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- "He who believes in Me...out of his heart will flow
rivers of living water." John 7:38
"A river is victoriously persistent, overcoming all barriers. For a
while it goes steadily on it's course, but then comes to an obstacle. And for a
while it is blocked, yet it soon makes a path way around the obstacle. Or a
river will drop out of sight for miles, only later to emerge again even broader
and greater than ever. Do you see God using the lives of others, but an obstacle
has come into your life and you do not seem to be of any use to God? Then keep
paying attention to the Source, and God will either take you around the obstacle
or remove it. The River of the Spirit of God overcomes all obstacles. Never
focus your eyes on the obstacle or the difficulty. The obstacle will be a matter
of total indifferent to the river that will flow steadily through you if you
will simply remember to stay focused on the Source. Never all anything to come
between you and Jesus Christ-not emotion nor experience-nothing must keep you
form the one great sovereign Source."
My Utmost for His Highest Oswald Chambers
My life, as a Christian, has been like that river. Victoriously persistent,
overcoming all barriers. There has been times when my life was been steadily on
course but I have also come up against obstacles. My biggest obstacle was six
years ago. During this time I wondered where God was, I wondered why He was
letting me go through this dry time. I didn't understand.
Three years later, I made major changes and found the Lord again. I had a
deeper hunger for Him but I had a lot of healing to do. I wanted to start my
life over again where I had left it 3 years earlier but the Lord reminded me
that it is in His time, not mine.
I have experienced God's grace and His Love for me. I have grown deeper in
love with my Lord and Savior. He is my Abba Father, my daddy. And during my dry
time, I realized that the Lord NEVER left me. He was right beside me. He was
faithful even when I was faithless.
I have also been healed of depression and a eating disorder which almost
destroyed me. He was taken the anger, bitterness, fear, worries, and anxiety
from me and filled it was such peace.
Among the healing, I have a freedom. It is like the big rocks have been taken
off my shoulders and I feel 10 pounds lighter. I have experienced freedom to be
my self with the Lord and others. But I have also experienced freedom in
worship. I dance and sing to the Lord. I show Him that I love Him so much and
that He is my All in All. He is my everything. I love you, Jesus.
The Lord has also looked after all my needs. He has blessed me with
a wonderful and loving husband, two great
boys, a house, and my health. He
has also provided me with a great family, friends, and church.
This new found love did not happen over night and I had to give my control
over to the Lord. He did the rest. I go with what the Lord wants because He has
great plans for me. He is faithful.